find the one song glory.

so check it, Well today im trying to write a song and i always get stuck on two words and a catchy hook.  Usually i'll play the hook for about an hour then switch to another song that i like such as a catchy andy davis tune.  Then i never go back to the song so in my mind somewhere there is a bunch of catchy original tunes and my goal today is to find them and actually finish a song.  so i know its short and i may come back later but thats all i got for today.

peace

Biker week and the american dream.

So check it, tonight is my last night at the beach and as i sit here amongst the loud sounds of Harleys from bike week and the sweet melodies of a beach music cover band i think about a lot of stuff.  Most of the stuff isn't even related to bikes and bad beach cover bands even tho there is a lot to be said about that.  Anyways this weekend has just been a time of reflection, i've really had a good time just relaxing and thinking about life.  Things like a wife, kids, and the american dream have been the topic of my thoughts.  Why don't i have a wife?  How many kids do i want?  Where am i going to live?  Where am i going to watch my kids grow up?  As i thought about these things i began to think about how superficial i am becoming i see all these happy couples and families and i get jealous that i don't have those things.  I want these things so bad and i know this isn't normal for a guy my age but thats just how i think.  Then i started thinking about how this effected my relationship with christ.  If i keep mentioning myself so much everyday then where has my thought for christ gone?  Now here is where the realization comes in.  I have all weekend been thinking about the american dream but christ has opened my eyes to the dream he has for me and in that i find peace.  So i may not have a wife (or even a girlfriend) but i'm cool with that i know God has me exactly where he wants me.  I think its great to have times like these times where God reveals himself to us in ways we don't want to see because i want a family i want kids i want all these things but i would give it all up for what God wants for me.  A lot of times i say that lightly "God have your way" and is that really what i want..... i don't think so.  I want to feel secured by the world and the lies it feeds our society, but i really want God to move in my life.  So in all this i guess i'm saying screw the american dream.  I guess thats it for the random rambling tonight.  Comment please.

Peace like Paul.

short like a shetland.

So check it, today was a very lazy day i slept to late to say then ate pizza.  what a beach vacation right.  I did however get some new kicks they are rocket dogs and they are pretty sweet.  Lastly i watched lars and the real girl and it was a really good movie.  It was about a guy who develops a delusion and makes a life size doll real in his mind  i don't want to give to much away but its a pretty good movie as suggested by Robin hunt.  The only thing i didn't like about it was the length and how it kinda stopped an hour into it but still it was a great movie.  I guess thats all i got for tonight cause its late and im tired.  Sorry its so short oh and please leave comments.

don't hate.

in the words of the great B-Rad geezy

Peace like paul

So fresh and so clean......

So check it, this is my first blog and im kind of excited but more excited that im at the beach.  Recently i have had many friends get blogs so i said why not it will keep my typing skills up and probably provoke some pretty good thoughts.  So today on the way to the beach i was thinking about my blog and how i could kind of kick it off but nothing really brilliant came to mind.  A little while down the road i started asking myself questions and not really getting any answers and i began to wonder why.  Constantly i ask myself questions about every thing and anything why my beard is red, why i do some of the stupid things i do, why do i fail to talk to people when i really do love and care for them, and ect..  Now in thinking this i began to realize that our prayer life as christians for the most part simply consists of us asking ourselves questions and why would we know the answers to our own questions....?  we don't and i think this is where the over used term un-answered prayer comes from (at least to our traditional christian society) and we use it as a crutch to cover our selfish ways.  I believe that all to often we replace God with our image and we ask ourselves questions wanting the answers that we seek and not seek the answers that we need and those are the answers that God has for us.  When did we become so calloused that replacing God with ourselves becomes second nature.  When did did we become so arrogant and not even know it.  So in this scattered thought of a first blog i ask.  Have you become selfish in your prayer life?  Has an amazing creators name been replaced with your own?  Will you change no matter the cost?

peace like paul.